I wanna smile again, as in smile because I'm happy

I'm tired of faking that smile

I'm tired of faking that laugh

I'm tired of being happy for something that hurts me

It's like trying to be someone you're not

I wanna smile and know everything's alright

I wanna say "Yes, I'm fine." without pretending

I wanna get that shot

I wanna get that chance

I wanna have the experience

The experience of true happiness

I wanna get out of here with a smile

I want to be HAPPY.

U-TURN

I was traveling to somewhere I never thought will bring me to waste. I opened my heart that was closed for a long time for the person whom I thought is worth it to have the love that I can give. Oh well, I was wrong, my friends told me things at first, yet I did not listen. I still gave that person a chance to prove something for himself. I found out a lot of things about him, family stuffs and many more, then there I understood his reason on acting so naive and self-centered. Knowing those, gave me the motivation to help him be what he should be, to change for the better. But I failed. I don’t know what happened but it’s all about him being so loose and making me feel stupid on the run. I was disappointed on where this journey had ended. I have done things to help this work, but sorry to say MY EFFORT wasn’t enough. Now I’m not hearing anything from him, then I have this feeling that he had found his NEW GIRL. I really don’t know if I have to react on this, knowing na hindi ko pa talaga siya kilala. Hahahaha:) funny right?! I just made myself hurt by this nonsense. as I say before, I was so ready to move forward and travel along the way with him, but I was stuck on a very heavy traffic at the middle of my way there, good thing I found a U-turn slot, then I decided to just go back. I just chose to be happy and not to make things complicated for me.

To that person; Thanks anyway for making me smile for just a little while. Just remember that whatever problems you encounter in life, especially with regards to your family, just face them WITH A SMILE. Kaya mo yan. go lang ng go! Hahaha:) and Thanks for hurting me, because I know after this, I will be stronger than ever. Goodbye, MAC.

-KT ANGELA

I have to let go.

i am not bitter about everything that happened, at least now i learned how to give my heart.I knew how to love others,how to be unselfish with your happiness. It's kinda awkward to think that i knew that every story has always come to an end, but i never think of it while the story is with me. I'm just enjoying every part of it.I lied with my own feelings. I became a great pretender. I have to wear a mask,to show them, Hey, i 'm Strong! I'm a good player, but the truth is; I fell and i lost the game. The Man who picked me up from the crowd, now leaving without any traces.He doesn't want to leave,really. But i have to let him go. He couldn't take care of my heart anymore. I deserve to be happy. I wanted to believe his every promise,his every word, his every whisper, but too much pain telling me not to hold on anymore. I love him so much,i could shout it at the top of my lungs.I wanted to breathe with him.I am contented with him.But,LOVE AIN'T JUST ENOUGH. I am trying to understand him,i try,i try but i can't hold on anymore. I wanted to believe that this is something real, that it's just a part of it, but i can't. How much i try, i can't. I missed the happiest part of my life. I can't wait anymore. I can't stay this way anymore. I can't.

My heart really wants to stay,but my hate overpowered my pure heart. I believe time will come that these words will lead us back together. Maybe, i am a fool,waiting for that time to come, and if that time didn't come along. It will always be a Beautiful Memory. I don't have to feel bitter. Life is beautiful even though i am bleeding.

-Kaitee’s heart

Life's been rough.

And to be honest, it's hard to keep crying everyday.

The only person I could run and talk to right now, is God. It's a given that he'll always be there for me :) Well, all of us of course :)

Pero ewan, I know that I should be happy with my life. But lately I've been giving up :( Giving up on love, Giving up on my dreams and everything else. And I'm actually starting to give up on myself.

I know there will be a day when I'll be able to smile because I'm just happy.

I hope happiness is on its way.

you make me feel worthless.

Did you ever had a day when you feel like just existing is just too much to bear? that the things done to you by the one you love makes you feel like stir-fried shit? that they make you feel like finding a bottle of pills and ending it all? well that’s how i feel right now.i really hate this feeling :(( i don’t know if i should believe the things he is saying :(( am really confused :(( he always tells me that he loves me, but there are times that he makes me feel like am worthless just like now. sometimes he is sweet as hell and can make you feel that your the only girl existing, but there are times (like now) that he makes you feel that your a nobody. am really confused and it sucks! i don’t know if i should be angry or what!, i don’t even know if i still have the right to be angry at him I’m getting tired of this :(( crying almost everyday :(( do i even deserve this?? :(( its all fucked up! :((

shoot me!!

Lord, I know we go through this every day

But please give me the knowledge

As to why I actually wanted to go to nursing school.

Lord, give me the strength to make it

Through those boring three hour lectures without falling asleep.

Lord, please give me the patience to make it

Through eight hour duty with instructors

That can't just give you the right answer

And on the same note,

Give the nurses the ability to remember what it was like to be a student

And give us just a little more respect.

Lord, give me the endurance to read all the assigned readings

And be able to remember it when I am taking a test with four right answers.

Lord, give my family and friends

The ability to realize I really am on the edge of insanity.

Finally,

Lord, give me the vision to see that one day

I will be a real nurse and I will never have to wear this ugly uniform again.