you make me feel worthless.

Did you ever had a day when you feel like just existing is just too much to bear? that the things done to you by the one you love makes you feel like stir-fried shit? that they make you feel like finding a bottle of pills and ending it all? well that’s how i feel right now.i really hate this feeling :(( i don’t know if i should believe the things he is saying :(( am really confused :(( he always tells me that he loves me, but there are times that he makes me feel like am worthless just like now. sometimes he is sweet as hell and can make you feel that your the only girl existing, but there are times (like now) that he makes you feel that your a nobody. am really confused and it sucks! i don’t know if i should be angry or what!, i don’t even know if i still have the right to be angry at him I’m getting tired of this :(( crying almost everyday :(( do i even deserve this?? :(( its all fucked up! :((

shoot me!!

Lord, I know we go through this every day

But please give me the knowledge

As to why I actually wanted to go to nursing school.

Lord, give me the strength to make it

Through those boring three hour lectures without falling asleep.

Lord, please give me the patience to make it

Through eight hour duty with instructors

That can't just give you the right answer

And on the same note,

Give the nurses the ability to remember what it was like to be a student

And give us just a little more respect.

Lord, give me the endurance to read all the assigned readings

And be able to remember it when I am taking a test with four right answers.

Lord, give my family and friends

The ability to realize I really am on the edge of insanity.

Finally,

Lord, give me the vision to see that one day

I will be a real nurse and I will never have to wear this ugly uniform again.